Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
And see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way. Psalm 139:23-24
So, as I mentioned yesterday, I have a story about a time many years ago when I took my emotional temperature, and it was revealing. It was in the late 1990’s, and I was just a few years into my position as New Creation Counseling Center Director. I had over-committed quite a bit, and in addition to administering a growing Christian community mental health center, I was seeing clients, and starting a Lay Pastor program to train church members basic care principles so that they could provide pastoral care to other church members. I also somehow thought it would be a good idea to sponsor a large training event at New Creation Counseling Center on Adult ADD with a partner from Michigan.
Amidst all this, I ended up one day driving to Michigan to meet with my sponsoring partner, and I ran into a major traffic jam on U.S Rt. 31. I mean, it was bumper to bumper, not really moving, and I was going to be late for my meeting. I was getting madder and madder as the jam persisted. Finally, I was about squirming out of my driver’s seat, just angry at life.
Then I thought to myself, “what are you doing?” My anger was, for some reason, not moving those cars ahead of me. In fact, that anger was not helping at all. I started to see that my anger was not really at the traffic jam, other drivers, the state of Michigan, or anything else.
I was mad at myself.
I had over-committed myself and I had no margins. I had made my own mess, and it was not anyone else’s fault but mine. Traffic jams happen, and it was going to ruin my schedule- a schedule that was beyond control by my own making.
So, the lesson was learned. I found some ways to delegate better, and I changed my schedule to a more reasonable level. I had learned a great lesson by taking my own emotional temperature and paying attention to what was going on with me.
Prayer: Thank you Lord for lessons learned, and your patience with those of us who sometimes learn the hard way, Amen